Saturday, May 30, 2015

Failure Takes Time

A failure today is nothing. Why? Because it's negligible, it can be corrected in an instant. A list of failures is a problem, because there are so many we don't know where to begin, so we tend to not start.

Think of your home or your room. You get back home after a day of work, friends, family and obligation. It's been a long one. You go and undress, but instead of putting your clothes in a hamper or laundry basket, you leave your clothes on the floor. Leaving your clothes on the floor is similar to not writing for a period of time. Is it a big deal? Of course not. Will this be a big deal if you do this for a straight month? You bet.

The difference is time. The first half of the example can be fixed in less than fifteen seconds, just like that chapter you've been putting off. Ok, maybe not fifteen seconds, but in the relative scope of all things, it's not much. It doesn't feel like a failure if it's been put off for a few days or a week.

We can't always be on point. We're (usually) not making  full-time wage, so we don't have the benefit of the entire day, which is fine. It's part of an overall idea that we're not machines, we need rest, and time away, and not every day is a working day.

I had a nasty issue with this idea, because I'm unable to write for certain long periods of times. There are other responsibilities and opportunities I must take, and they require one hundred percent focus and determination. My complication was I would defeat myself. I'd put myself in a game that I could never win. The ultimate consequence being hesitation and self-doubt. There was no hundred percent, which is my favorite kind of output.

I had to realize that this idea I held wasn't just negatively affecting my writing, but the other important aspects of my life. When I felt like I wasn't doing enough in one area, I would steal concentration from another, which led me to doing only half-efforts in all. Once I recognized this is ow my life will be in the future, with no real radical change in sight, I adjusted properly. First thing was I stopped feeling guilty for focusing my efforts elsewhere for three months. Had to be done, no way around it.

What happened was that one hundred percent focus came back. When I finished with what I had to do, it was easy not to worry and get right back into writing. This is probably "Duh" information, but it's a subtle trap to fall into.

Failure is looking back to a year or more of inaction. Success is doing what you need to do now.