Wednesday, November 19, 2014

NaNoWriMo 2014: Day 19

I feel today is good enough to make you feel guilty about writing. The majority of NaNoWriMo has passed, so we're full swing on our works. 

It's true that no author is at odds with another. Every time someone writes a book, they create a reader. Stories is one of the few non-competitive businesses we can be involved in. Outside of vindictive and malicious people, there's no need to worry about others. That doesn't mean others don't outperform us.

The people who succeed work hard, in fact, they work the hardest. The put in more effort than you and me. And if we want to achieve the dream, if we want to write full-time, we need to strive for it vigorously.

Cut out the unnecessary, but don't take the good stuff with it. I made that mistake. Long hours, little time with friends or family; I was obsessed. Some would say that's the right kind of attitude, although I know they're full of shit.

The beginning of this Fall my family found out my grandmother had cancer. She went in for a routine check up, and the doctor found a large mass. There was a real possibility that the cancer had spread, so the appropriate doctor visits were scheduled as soon as possible. If the cancer had turned malignant, there would be no stopping it.

As it turns out, everything went well. Somehow she avoided radiation and chemotherapy, and went straight into surgery. She is now cancer free.

Around this time I was working on edits to my first book. I wanted to rework sections and change a few things around, because I grew as a writer a year after publishing it. Do you know what I found out? The book didn't matter. Releasing a second book didn't matter. What was important was I spent time with my family. The book can wait.

The Dragon's Tear has a new draft with more words. I can do the same thing next year. And the year after that, and the year after that. I can literally do whatever I want with it when I want. 

I don't know how true it is that other people want this dream more than I do. Maybe they do deserve it; the books, the fans, the lifestyle. I know NaNoWriMo will be here next year, the manuscript will still be on the hard drive, and I'll still have the passion. From now on I'm going to spend more of my time wisely. I'm not going to lose sight of the people I care about.